Give thanks to the Lord, for His love endures forever

Ps 118:1 No matter what.... His love endures forever...towards us. How thankful am I for that?
Not sure who reads this and although these are private thots, I know He has me share them for a reason.
Lately, I have been reminded that Happiness is a Choice.....if you're not happy...look at yourself in the mirror...nothing has happened by mistake...God knew you before the foundation of the world and he knows everything that is, has and will happen!!!
I have been grumpy lately, bemoaning my circumstances in life, trying desperately to regroup and somehow..... I was stuck....in my own emotions...
The verse jolted me into remembering .... things I am thankful for!!!
Last year when my husband was in the hospital, completely unable to think and function in life, my life took a sudden turn..... Roles shifted quickly and I wasn't prepared for it.
Lately, I have been thinking of how things had been and wishing and wondering if they would be like they were.
I thot he was carefree and flowing. Now he is calculated and planning, only able to think of one thing at a time. When that is completed, then the next thing will be in focus.
He is slowly and gradually coming back...able to think beyond just daily tasks. It is hard for him to believe that people do not view him as who he was....I remind him that right now he is still coming back. His memory of the whole mania episode is sparse..... He wants to be who God has planned for him. He still has the passion for the Lord inside him, it is so hard for him to formulate and share unless asked and prepared ahead in his mind.
So where does that leave us....in the natural.....dangling....between past and future...not sure what the present is.
I do enjoy...
-Having him around more often
-seeing his warm smile after I remind him of our blessings
-knowing he is still able to pick up a chainsaw and shovel and cut up a tree and dig to fix sewage tank.
-knowing that each day he is here to let me know he loves me.
-knowing that I am blessed, living in the knowledge that God has it all under control

So do you struggle with being Happy?
Remember...God said he would never leave or forsake you....
You can be Happy!!!
I am also so thankful for family and friends...
Thank You....

All Backed UP

So last week was one of those weeks...sewage backed up in our basement sinks and overflowed...thankfully most of it was grey water. Yes we needed the tank pumped..badly. So to the tune of 300.00 we got it pumped...but then the next day...more backing up...Seems the sludge did a backwash and we did not have enough pressure from the toliets to flush it thru...our problem not the sewage guys:( In the process of the back up ....our washer died!!! Now back up crap, and dirty clothes. All the while I'm working .....trying to fix meals and keep the house running. So thankful Van stepped up to the plate and gathered a friend (thanks, Ron) and snaked it out,,,,ugh.... and then did some shopping around and found a used washer(150 instead of 4-600 new!!) and it was in and running on Saturday.
So that brings me to today...
I did not sleep well saturday or sunday nites....my only 2 nites off before 3 again....I am feeling backed up today..... body aches, fuzzy brain. So many things to do and not enough time to do it in. Have to write this out to clear my mind. Life sometimes has you all backed up. I don't know the solution, but I will keep moving in hopes that what is important gets done and that I make good decisions on what can wait.
Good note...Joel did well preaching on Sunday despite the fact he had been in bed fri-sun with a bad cold....pray he gets and stays better!!
OK...gotta go...

9 years ago

yesterday 9 years ago I had heart surgery-
my world was rocked by it then.
I am so blessed to be doing well and thank the Lord everyday for good health!
it's hard to believe it is fall.
tonite feels like fall-crisp air, made apple dumplings today-yum
work was very busy this week.
life at home is good, Joel coming and going from college-an occasional glimpse of Brandi
Van keeps busy, sold pa equipment and things not used in the basement and was able to get himself a new tv....yes I like it too.
no new revelations....
still some old frustrations rising-esp over situations i do not have the power to change but i find are hurtful....so hard to understand
have to trust God and timing

Labor Day

So...for me I think of women in labor since I am a OB nurse.....
Labor...so many things it can mean....
Not laboring in vain...spiritually...
labor ...working hard...
on and on....
Had a great week this past week:)
Fun times in Alexandria....love King St and walking to the Dock and also riding the free trolley.
Van and I had some free time the beginning of the week....
Enjoyed time with Jeremy Carla, Aliza and Josiah...
Catching up with Joel this morning.....
Thinking of my Texas Kids....proud of them...
Work is busy for me....enjoying it though
Someday I will learn how to post pix to here:)

End of Summer

I sit here with a plethora of emotions....
Day to day things are good. This summer was delightful.
Still sorting through my thots of....grown children. changing roles, and new direction for my(our) lives. A this stage in life, you have to regroup...or I guess you are supposed to:)
We have been going on mini vacations this summer...in between I have been working and haven't had time to keep up on housework....oh...that is a struggle in my regular life let alone add time away. I'm feeling the need inside to organize...but I really need The Clean Sweep Team to come and help me!
OK...grown children...changing roles...knowing they have their lives....wanting to be aware of what is happening and to pray and encourage them and be involved...wishing and not sure where and how the boundaries should work. Any one with words of wisdom would help:)
Just celebrated our 33rd year anniversary...
so many years ago ...was so in love....am so in love, much different dimension now.....much more commitment than I ever expected but would never turn back!
Friends and Church....right now I ...we are so much more introspective....hard to find those whom are available...totally different place than I have ever been in my God Walk and involvement with Church. Have a few....thankfully.
New things to be involved with at work, looking forward to new goals within my work setting.

Pressing toward the mark takes on new meaning with each season of life.

Summer moving forward

July....hot days, fresh squash, cucumbers now...and green beans from the garden next week. Watching each week for new flowers to bloom in the yard.
Loving the time we spent in Md:) Hopeing to get to travel to Texas some time...missing my kids there. I'm such a sappy Mom...thinking of my kids and grandkids bunches,,,,everyday!

Thankfullness

Each day I make plans...does my day go that way? Usually not. With me working fulltime nites right now..it is hard to keep any kind of normal schedule. The nights I work each week are different. Nite time staff is low..it is ok if censes is low...stinks if it is up. Recently censes is low causeing us to take turns being off...yes.... then if we want to get paid, we have to use PTO(vacation time).
There are so many things I want to do...but tiredness and time restraints keep me from doing them.

It is particularly frustrating for me when Van...who now works part-time, wants to schedule more vacation or wanting me to go places and do things on little or no sleep. I try not to overreact, but without proper sleep and crazy 50 year old hormones...sometimes I fuss!
I am pleased that we do have things planned this year to do together. Last year with his whole disease episode, it was not that way and I was a hurting pup!!!! He is doing so much better....however each day we have reminders and it is a ongoing process. Like any other disease process...it is ...till death do us part...disease and mariage.
I had my yearly heart check-up....everything looks the same-that's good:)
So I end with this....I am thankful...
I could make a list but that will be another time...
Til next time.... Blessings to all who read....

My schedule has been crazy since my last blog. So many things to do and situations to walk through. Thankfully, each one will end up being OK with God's help. In between sometimes I get on emotional overload. That was me on Sunday... we had a praise and worship night and then opportunity for prayer. So grateful for those available to pray...giving things over to God and getting a different perspective helps. I get frustrated because God has placed within me a sense of knowing...so when things are happening, I can peg them but usually the persons involved aren't at the point to hear and receive.... Ok...so supper needs to be made and errands run.

first blog

Today is a brand new day!!! Thanking God for all my blessings.