Give thanks to the Lord, for His love endures forever

Ps 118:1 No matter what.... His love endures forever...towards us. How thankful am I for that?
Not sure who reads this and although these are private thots, I know He has me share them for a reason.
Lately, I have been reminded that Happiness is a Choice.....if you're not happy...look at yourself in the mirror...nothing has happened by mistake...God knew you before the foundation of the world and he knows everything that is, has and will happen!!!
I have been grumpy lately, bemoaning my circumstances in life, trying desperately to regroup and somehow..... I was stuck....in my own emotions...
The verse jolted me into remembering .... things I am thankful for!!!
Last year when my husband was in the hospital, completely unable to think and function in life, my life took a sudden turn..... Roles shifted quickly and I wasn't prepared for it.
Lately, I have been thinking of how things had been and wishing and wondering if they would be like they were.
I thot he was carefree and flowing. Now he is calculated and planning, only able to think of one thing at a time. When that is completed, then the next thing will be in focus.
He is slowly and gradually coming back...able to think beyond just daily tasks. It is hard for him to believe that people do not view him as who he was....I remind him that right now he is still coming back. His memory of the whole mania episode is sparse..... He wants to be who God has planned for him. He still has the passion for the Lord inside him, it is so hard for him to formulate and share unless asked and prepared ahead in his mind.
So where does that leave us....in the natural.....dangling....between past and future...not sure what the present is.
I do enjoy...
-Having him around more often
-seeing his warm smile after I remind him of our blessings
-knowing he is still able to pick up a chainsaw and shovel and cut up a tree and dig to fix sewage tank.
-knowing that each day he is here to let me know he loves me.
-knowing that I am blessed, living in the knowledge that God has it all under control

So do you struggle with being Happy?
Remember...God said he would never leave or forsake you....
You can be Happy!!!
I am also so thankful for family and friends...
Thank You....